Interview by S. Rosenkvist. April 2018

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As I understood did you grow up in Barcelona and live there still. What would you describe as your national identity? Do you feel Spanish, Catalan or something else?

Yes, I was born in Barcelona, but I only lived there until I was four years old. Then I been living in a small town near Barcelona for almost twenty-five years. Also, I’ve been living two months in Zürich and one year and a half in Bologna.
I like the sentence: I feel my home where the people I love is.
I don’t feel myself identified with any flag or community, it’s true that I feel myself much more linked to the place where I live. The people near me, my town or the mountains near me, are more responsible of who I am than big areas of land conformed with a big amount of cultural differences.
It’s strange to me, how people wish to be part of grandiose things, big collectives of people, identity as nation, etc. Maybe I’m wrong, but I think that’s a problem of a lack of individual identity.
Months ago, I made my own flag in response to that idea. It was black with two spots of color, one cyan and the other magenta (my main colors on my paintings). I wrote: this is the flag of the independent republic of myself, it represents my soul, my mind and body. It can explain better what I feel in terms of the question you did.WHY ART
When I read about your artistic background I find that you are self-thought. Would you please explain a bit of where you found inspiration to start making art from and when you started? Also, what gave you aspiration to continue to create? Do you see yourself in the future being a fulltime artist, and if yes, when did that became clear to you?

WHY ART
When I read about your artistic background I find that you are self-thought. Would you please explain a bit of where you found inspiration to start making art from and when you started? Also, what gave you aspiration to continue to create? Do you see yourself in the future being a fulltime artist, and if yes, when did that became clear to you?

I’ve been all my life drawing, I was that kind of kid with a huge imagination, and probably it was a consequence of my life, and it can be explained in two phases I’d never explained in previous interviews:
– First, when I was 6 years old, my parents were divorced. It was very painful for me, several residence changes, too much time far away from my mom and sister, and the most bigger consequence of that creativity arrived when our family became poor. I remember myself wondering to have toys, and as we don’t had money to buy toys, I was creating them with the materials I was finding at home.
Drawing, then became also, the way I had to recreate my dreams with that things I was unable to have.
– Second. That time of poorness finally finished, but I was very introspective person, I had different interests than the rest of the teens, and for that reason I was suffering bullying at high school. It was the time when I started playing music and painting, it was the way I had to express my personal frustration as if they were my personal diary.
The first paintings I did, were self-portraits. I think that understand myself through self-portrait is the main reason why actually I’m a painter.
-Since 2014 I’m working with art galleries, I’ve been almost full-time artist since then (combining painting with teaching
art, and working on a museum as a curator), but since 2016 I’m full time artist.

When I was 16 years old, I decided to study art, but as consequence of problems with documents, my inscription in high-school of art was not possible, and I decided to study technology (my second passion). During my studies, I’d started to be part of group exhibitions, and then was when the idea of being a full-time artist came to me.

It’s not easy to have this dream in Catalonia or Spain, because in my opinion, art is not considered as a real profession:
*you must work into something to make money despite you are not enjoying it, because you must have money to buy a house, a car, etc. Being painter is not a profession, the kids also draw, it’s a stupid profession.
I heard that kind of sentences so many times, despite that, I thought:

I prefer to be poor but happy doing what I love than working into other things losing my dream.
The day I started working with an art gallery was the day when I really pushed myself to be better, with the ambition to live only of my work.
PROGRESS

PROGRESS
I am very curious about your self-portraits. Do you use a mirror or a photograph as help? When you are beginning a new work, is it the physical expression or the feeling behind it that comes first in mind? Tell me about how it comes that you are picturing your motifs in this unique intimate way and what is means to you.

-Sometimes I use mirrors (I have a big mirror), sometimes I take pictures of myself and more often I’m using the laptop camera to watch myself on the screen.
Three years before, I painted all my self-portraits from mind, but I decided to be better and I pushed myself to use visual references. As I worked for so long without references, nowadays I like to start the painting with reference and then finish it from mind, it makes me keep that essence.
-Each single painting is the consequence of a personal needing that I have to express myself. As I like to say: for me, painting is like my personal diary. If I have nothing I need to work out on my mind, I don’t feel the needing to paint myself, focusing my paintings then in the interpretation of other human’s feelings.
-I think that the last question is linked with what I’ve explained before. My paintings are the reason of each person internal world. Humans are very interesting to me, because we are trying to be different than we are when we are in our intimacy.
We can feel ourselves sad, but when we are with others we tend to hide that feeling with a false image of ourselves.
If I’m sincere, I’d never thought about those things before, I’m only painting in the way I feel I need to paint because it’s a tool to work-out my thoughts. I admire those artists that have a very strong definition and theory about their own works, I don’t.
My painting is the reason of my past, my present, my unknown future and who I am.

INTENTIONS
In the context of national identity can I find your art, as I explained, useful as a statement. The impossibility to ignore the individual and its feelings and self-portraits becomes a very interesting representation of the people.
Do you have any political or provoking intentions with your art?

No, I don’t.
I’m not interested in political arts, or in art made for a specific collective. I have the conception of art as something
universal and timeless.
I don’t disagree with it, it’s respectable as all arts, but the thing that push me to have my love for arts was the
physiological aspects of the humans explained with paintings.
It’s true that thinking about all my work, I’ve never made references to a specific place, with identities or time; they are all
focused only on the body and their emotions.

IMPACT
Do you think that your national identity has had any specific impacts in your artistic expression? If yes, then
how? And at last, who is your art for?

Thinking about it, in a voluntary way, it hadn’t. But I cannot be sure if it had any impact on my work in an involuntary way.
My conception of art is probably very idyllic and romantic, my painting reflects who I am, for that reason art means for me sincerity. One of my main pillars is that my paintings should be at first time for me, then they become part of the audience and finally I feel myself prepared to let it go.
Being more specific to “who is your art for”, my paintings are going to countries around the world, and my own country is the country with less number of my paintings (except all the paintings I have in my
studio!).